Inside the anxious mind.

Since my anxious tendencies yet again have me up early, I thought I would take the time to write out what goes through my mind during these low points.

First of all, none of my thoughts are cohesive. So if I try to talk to you about my problems they will all come out like word vomit with no connections between thoughts. All my problems will spill out in no particular order.

Second, I won’t understand any form of rational thoughts. I won’t understand in this moment that things will get done or that I will be able to do everything that I want to do or that i’m capable of doing it. At this breaking point, all seems lost and I lose all faith in myself.

Third, I will cry….often. I’m full of emotions in the first place but when you add the pressure of school and the idea of a grade on the line, i go into full hysterics. Don’t be surprised if you can not understand a word i’m saying between sobs.

Fourth, I will get over it eventually. Talking to a rational person helps me out immensely at this point. They put rational thoughts back into my head and as I let them sink in, I am pulled back to reality. After awhile I realize how ridiculous I acted and feel ashamed but I also move forward.

I’m not sure how many other people who deal with anxious tendencies will deal with the same things but I know this is how I think and deal with situations. Just know that I need someone to talk to, someone to listen to what I have to say and remind me to breathe and rationalize my situation.



3 thoughts on “Inside the anxious mind.

  1. More people than you can imagine feel the same. It’s really comforting for me at least to know that I’m not the only one.

  2. I have depressive tendecies, not really anxious ones, but it feels like the same kind of thing it just goes in a different direction. And you said you feel ashamed, and I try really hard not to let myself feel ashamed, which, if you can stand the advice, is something that might be a good idea to try. I just kind of tell myself, “Okay, I can’t control the depression, but despite it I still did the thing, so I’m going to focus on that because that’s something that *I* did.”

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