Unfortunately, dealing with anxiety is a day by day process that doesn’t seem to get easier. You get tired, you get stressed, you constantly question your own existence.
Your heart races, your eyes dash and you throat dries as you scurry through everyday life. You may be over emotional, easy to break because you just want to please the people around you. You ultimately always think you fail at this and beat yourself up about it.
Let me tell you from experience, anxiety is a deep hole and it causes friendships to strain and family members to fret but just believe me when I say that at the end of the day, it’s the people you let in that help you through this darkness.
You may be nervous to let anyone in and I know it’s hard to put yourself on the line like this but if you could only see the people around you, their worried eyes and tight hugs are there to assure you. Will it always work? No. There are always bad days, just know that you aren’t your worst days.
You are the strength that it takes to cry and smile and breathe every single day. You are toughest person on the planet because you may go through everyday with doubt but at least you’re making it through the day.
Don’t let this stop you. Don’t let anyone stop you. It won’t always be easy and I promise you that it’s no fun at all but believe me when I say that you’re doing just fine. Go at your own pace. Do what you can and do what YOU need to do.
Let people in but don’t let them control your thoughts, don’t let them tell you to get over yourself or that anxious thoughts are impractical. You know this and you know you are more than your mental illness, what matters here and now is that you push through.
It may not happen overnight but it’s the ultimate idea that it will happen. Don’t give up and don’t give in to your negative thoughts.